A Special Mothers Day Thank You

Saturday, May 12, 2012

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Dear God,

Thank you for allowing me the privilege and responsibility of being a mother. I know that it wasn’t an easy decision for you to make. In fact, it took you eight long years to make it.  Maybe you felt that I wasn’t ready.  The waiting was hard, but I had faith in your plan for me – even though I had no idea what that might be.

I remember the exact moment when I learned that I was pregnant.   It was just a few days before Mother’s Day in 1993.  I was sitting in my sunroom, having my morning coffee when I got the call.  When the telephone rang, I didn’t want to answer it.  I had been disappointed so many, many times before.  But on that day, thanks to you, I finally heard the words that I’d longed to hear.  The waiting was over, and my life changed forever. 

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I reveled in being pregnant!  Each day was such a gift!  The sun shone brighter; the grass grew greener; and the flowers bloomed in Technicolor.  It was also the only time I can remember when I was actually encouraged to gain weight!   I didn’t even mind the heartburn or the various other…um…gastrointestinal issues that cropped up.  That time was fraught with anxiety too.  With every little twitch or twinge I felt, I was convinced that something was wrong.  I had my obstetrician on speed dial and burned up the phone lines calling her daily for reassurance.

Do you remember the time I had my first Braxton-Hicks contractions and thought I was in premature labor?  I raced home and put myself on bed rest!  I also made Mr. SGCC sit there with me for two solid weeks playing gin rummy to distract me.  What a dork I was!  What about that one day I was reading What to Expect When You’re Expecting, and the book suddenly flew off my lap?  I looked down and saw, as plain as day, the outline of a tiny, little foot poking out of my swollen belly.  I think that was the moment I realized the magnitude of the miracle you had given me.

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When it was time to go to the hospital to give birth, I experienced fear like I’d never imagined before.   I didn’t know how to take care of a baby!  What if I couldn’t do this?  What if something went wrong?  What if I turned out to be a terrible mother?   I felt so unprepared and inadequate!   But in the delivery room, you stayed with me and held my hand the whole time.  And when the doctors told me that I needed a C-section, you whispered in my ear that it would be all right.  I trusted you, like I always had, and felt the calm wash over me.

I’ll never forget when they put my precious, beautiful baby girl in my arms for the first time.  She had a full head of soft, wavy hair and the most perfect little ruby-red, rosebud lips.  I never knew I could feel such utter and complete bliss!   Mesmerized, I gazed at my baby’s sweet face, as Mr. SGCC frantically counted all of her fingers and toes.  (I’m not sure why.  I think his mother told him to do it.)

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For the next eighteen years, I shared my baby’s triumphs and sorrows.  I laughed with abandon when she was happy, and cried rivers of tears when she was sad.  I even felt physical pain when she got hurt.  I still do.  But, each ounce of joy has been worth every pound of heartache.

Motherhood has had it’s challenges.  It’s been both the most rewarding and most difficult work I’ve ever done.  I haven’t always known what to do, or had the right answers. I know I’ve made mistakes.   But, I’ve always tried my best.  And, you were always there to guide me along the way.  Thank you for that too!

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Remember when we almost lost our daughter in an auto accident last November?   That was the second time I experienced unimaginable fear.  Seeing my child lying bruised and broken was almost too much for me to bear.  All those months during her recovery took a toll on me – mentally and physically.  There were days when I didn’t trust my own legs to support me.  Those were the days that I could feel you holding me up and gently pushing me forward.  I couldn’t have done it without you, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart!

In a few weeks, my beautiful girl will be graduating from high school.  Soon after, she’ll be going off to college to start a whole new chapter in her life.  I pray that her father and I have prepared her well for what lies ahead.  However, I know that when she stumbles, you will be there to hold her up too.  And, if she should struggle with self-doubt, you’ll surely take her hand and whisper in her ear as well.  Thank you in advance for that.

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Mother’s Day is recognized as the day that we honor the women in our lives who birthed us, raised us, nurtured us, and most importantly, who loved us.  We treat our moms with flowers and gifts and fancy restaurant meals.  I don’t care too much about those things.   All I want for Mother’s Day this year is to know that my child is healthy and happy, and that you are watching over her.  I believe that you are.  And for that,  Dear God, I am eternally grateful.

All My Love,

Susan

P.S.  Hope you like the sweet treats!

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24 responses to A Special Mothers Day Thank You

  1. On May 13, 2012 at 1:51am, Stephanie said...

    Motherhood is truly a gift. Thank you for sharing that with us!

    Happy Mother’s Day!!

  2. On May 13, 2012 at 2:59am, Sandra said...

    Perfect. And so very sweet. I don’t think any mother, including myself, could have said this better—I felt every word. Such lovely photos as well… Happy Mother’s Day to you!

  3. On May 13, 2012 at 4:39am, Rosa said...

    Happy Mother’s Day!

    What luscious treats.

    Cheers,

    Rosa

  4. On May 13, 2012 at 2:31pm, Jill Mant~a SaucyCook said...

    What an incredibly beautiful and heartfelt post. My children are now 27, 29 and 31 and my 27 year old is the mother of 4 incredible blessings. I rarely go a day without speaking with my daughters, although we live in 3 different states. My son not so often but I adore him none-the-less. I remember my pregnancies with them as though it was yesterday, as I recall their giggles, their tears and every fall they took. I remember my son’s pain when he came home from preschool and told me Jeff said he hated him and I remember thinking I was surely a terrible person for having the urge to beat up a four year old! I remember the agony of living through my youngest daughter’s running away; my fear for her very life and the horror at thinking that she didn’t want me in her life.
    My heart broke again for you hearing of your daughter’s accident. Thank you for letting me know she is alright. And thank you for such a beautiful reminder of how blessed we moms truly are.

  5. On May 13, 2012 at 2:39pm, melissa said...

    I just turned 19 and I am so thankful to have my Mom and I couldn’t have asked for a better lady to birth me into this world.

  6. On May 13, 2012 at 4:24pm, Katy Judy said...

    What a beautiful, heartfelt, inspirational message to be found in my email today. The Lord has given us so many blessings to be grateful for and sometimes I think we forget to be grateful. Thank you for putting it so beautifully for all of us to share.

  7. On May 13, 2012 at 7:06pm, Angela said...

    Thank you so much for sharing such an important event in your life. I, too, thank God for all the wonderful blessings he has given me. I live in northeast Florida and we spent a lovely day today, on the beach, with my 98 year old mom (she is a real trooper), my 48 year old son, 49 year old daughter, with their respective families including several teenage grandchildren. And, I spoke to my daughter and family in SC. What more could I ask for???? God is good!
    Yesterday I made your strawberry cake recipe and it is as good as you said it would be. My husband and grandson raved about it. It reminded me of a little cake my mother-in-law used to make with apples. I am new to your blog and really enjoy it. A presto….Angela

  8. On May 14, 2012 at 12:23am, Michelle @ Brown Eyed Baker said...

    What an absolutely beautiful post, Susan! I’m not a mom, but I found this completely and totally inspiring. It made me appreciate MY mom all that much more!

  9. On May 14, 2012 at 12:47am, Shawn @ I Wash...You Dry said...

    Happy Mother’s Day to you!

  10. On May 14, 2012 at 2:36am, bellini said...

    Happy Mothers Day Susan. It reallyis a special gift and one that is not fleeting since we have them in our lives always.

  11. On May 14, 2012 at 9:22am, Susan said...

    Thank you all for the kind words! I’m so glad you enjoyed this post! Our children are truly the richest blessings that we can receive. :)

  12. On May 14, 2012 at 3:09pm, Rachel (S[d]OC) said...

    Hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day. Your daughter is a very lucky woman – especially given the menus at home!

  13. On May 14, 2012 at 9:28pm, Lexy Vu said...

    Susan, after reading this, I NOW know and realize how my mother has felt, still feels, all these years. I, myself, am not a mother but this has really opened my eyes to something new. You were able to describe I think what my mom has been telling me all along! Happy late mother’s day to you!

  14. On May 14, 2012 at 10:44pm, Elizabeth - SugarHero! said...

    Susan, this is so sweet. I just gave birth to my first a few weeks ago, and all the emotions you write about are very, very real to me right now. (Those post-partum hormones may have something to do with it, too!) Thank you for such a beautiful post.

  15. On May 16, 2012 at 7:59am, Amye Melton said...

    Such a beautiful post, thank you for sharing that.

  16. On May 17, 2012 at 12:09pm, Eve said...

    Look. That was nice and everything, touching and all that stuff but please, PLEASE keep the religious side out of it! I’m an atheist in a Catholic area and I already feel like something is wrong with me!
    Thanks for your time,
    Eve

    • On May 17, 2012 at 12:31pm, Susan said...

      I’m sorry that you didn’t enjoy the post. I can appreciate the fact that you are an atheist and it certainly wasn’t my intention to convert you or anyone else. While I rarely ever post anything religious in nature on my site, occasionally I feel compelled to do so. That is who I am, and I make no apologies for it. The first two words, “Dear God”, should have tipped you off about what was to come. If you found it offensive, you were certainly free not to read the rest. But, please don’t presume to tell me what I should or should not write about on my PERSONAL blog, unless you are paying me – which you’re not. I find THAT offensive.

      Have a great day!

      Susan

  17. On May 17, 2012 at 1:07pm, Colleen said...

    A beautiful, heartfelt and poignant read. So well written. Congratulations Susan for putting out there what you feel in your heart. God bless you! Hugs from Cape Town xxx

  18. On May 17, 2012 at 1:27pm, Tracy Moulton said...

    Susan, As always, so eloquently expressed. I feel exactly as you do about my own girls. No other gift even comes close than the health and happiness of our children. Love, Tracy

  19. On May 17, 2012 at 2:20pm, jo ann buller said...

    i loved the things you wrote. i agree with all of it. i was blessed with 3 beautiful girls now ages 37, 32, and 27. and no matter how old they are you are always affected by everything in their lives. i’ve had joys and sorrows, laughter and tears. i reveled in the birth of my 2 grandchildren and enjoyed having them to babysit until they were of age to go to school. there is nothing like it. motherhood is one of the most blessed things God has given us. thanks for the good memories your blog has given me.

  20. On May 17, 2012 at 4:58pm, Michelle said...

    What a beautiful post – so wonderfully written and full of emotion, I can relate to what a treasure it is to have a child to cherish, and what a blessing it is to be honored with the title of mom. I know He’s proud of making you her mom.

  21. On May 17, 2012 at 6:58pm, Kim Bee said...

    Susan I am a fellow blogger and have avoided putting this info out into the blogosphere but I’m an Atheist. I do not find this post offensive in any way. You clearly start it by saying “Dear God” so it’s not rocket science to know where you’re headed with the post. If people don’t like it they shouldn’t read it. While I don’t believe, I respect others right to and am sort of fascinated by people with so much faith. Don’t take one Atheist’s views as the view of all of us. Good for you for having the courage of your convictions. It’s something to be proud of.

    I lost my Mom when I was 15 years old. So I know all too well life is short. Mother’s Day is hard on my heart. No matter how much time passes that day rocks me. So to read someone who has their priorities straight warms my heart.

    Keep writing what you want, when you want, the way you want! xx

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  23. On August 22, 2013 at 9:47am, Janet Fettig said...

    I’m new to Pinterest but not new to being a mother 3 times and Grandmother to 7. I shared the joy of being pregnant years ago, having had the luxury of being a stay at home mom and being there for all the ” firsts’. Becoming a grandmother brought many new joys … Sort of like an extension of when your own children were little. I love them all and am in their lives as much as possible; I even love being called “Grandma!” :). Thank you for sharing your experiences and know it only gets better!

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